I hear him laugh

there’s a lump in my throat

I hear his voice

I want to hide

I see his smile

I can feel the tears start

I can’t look at his eyes

because then I won’t be able to stop them from falling

and all I can think

is WHY?

How did it get this far?

How did it go this wrong?

How can I feel this sad – over someone who doesn’t care at all about me?

I’m Done

I’m Gone

I can’t take it anymore

and I shouldn’t have to.

I wish I could shut my feelings off

Why do I still want to protect him from people who would hurt him?

He is hurting me – he doesn’t give a shit.

If he saw this

he would say

I’m pathetic

he would call me crazy and a lot of other things

he wouldn’t be wrong

who am I to care who he dates?

no one

just because he flirts outrageously

doesn’t mean he likes me

just because he needs my attention

doesn’t mean he likes me

I flirt outrageously

it means I like him

I love having his attention

it means I like him

I love his laugh

I love his smile

I love his eyes

I love

he doesn’t

i’m hurt

he’s not

i guess that’s the sacrifice I make

because i can’t shut off love

no matter how badly I want to

Here is something I wrote while angry: